| ACKNOWLEDGMENTS | 9 |
| PROLOGUE | 11 |
| INTRODUCTION | 15 |
| 1. | MY NEW GOLF HANDICAP: AN ACHING SHOULDER! | 21 |
| 2. | I SUSPECT ANOTHER TUMOR | 35 |
| 3. | TALKING ABOUT IT | 49 |
| 4. | WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO THE MINISTRY IF. . .? | 63 |
| 5. | SURGERY | 77 |
| 6. | DO YOU REALLY TRUST GOD? | 95 |
| 7. | COPING WITH PAIN AND SUFFERING | 115 |
| 8. | THOUGHTS FROM JUDY BURKETT | 131 |
| 9. | THE SEARCH FOR AN ALTERNATIVE TREATMENT | 149 |
| 10. | PHYSICIANS' PERSPECTIVES ON ALTERNATIVE TREATMENTS | 171 |
| 11. | WHAT TO DO WHEN YOUR MONEY RUNS OUT | 195 |
| 12. | TIME OUT! | 215 |
| 13. | CARDS AND LETTERS | 229 |
| APPENDIX: RECOMMENDED READING LIST | 251 |